My bloods, sweats and tears......

I'm giving out my bloods, sweats and tears all over in my training!!!!!Counting down 12 days to kill myself in Phuket! Feeling really bad tonight, really want to give up in the 3rd set....I hate cycling, it made me feeling really painful on my bike which i cannot enjoy! I cannot archive the target HR, legs sore, muscle tired, having really bad mood...........Becoz of the promise of myself and to my coach and my husband, my life is training almost everyday, no shopping, no gathering, sleep and eat healthy. When i off to work, i have to back home ASAP either pack my training gear or get on my trainer........! I have no choice, becoz i would not quit. To quit is easy, i want people to remember me my glory!